Sunday, May 1, 2011

Lazy Day

It turned cool last night. I put an extra blanket on my bed! I still couldn't get to sleep. Seems like every time I go to the RV, I can't sleep that night. I was still awake at 4 am! This is the second time this week I have done that. I think I am disturbed about my decision to get out of the RV and move into this apartment. I would move right back in if I thought I could. I have to remind my self why I wanted to get out of the RV. Doesn't make me happy! The apartment is nice and I hope I will get used to it. I am not much of a "joiner" even though I belonged to several RV clubs for singles. Most of those camp out were just for three or four days. Here it is a constant, noise from people going down the hall, or stopping at my door to talk. It is just me. I like it here, but it is depressing to see so many people in electric carts, or on walkers. They zoom all over the place. Most of them are very friendly, and seem to be happy. There are a lot of families that come to visit and bring their children. The play ground is right outside my front window. The dog goes nuts when she sees the people out there. There is no stopping her from barking. It is very startling to see someone standing right in front of your window! I know they are not thinking about me, just "peeing" their dog! I really enjoyed staying at Thousand Trails, because of the birds and other wild life that would come to my site. Here, I have the birds, but I really didn't want them to "nest" on my patio, there is bird poop all over it! I guess life moves on and so do I! Not happy about my oldest daughter being in a nursing home either. It does weigh on my mind. Her children did not want to let her go, and won't concede the fact that she won't ever wake up. Even though the doctors have told them she will always be just like she is now. Life just gets to me some time, and I have to do a lot of talking with the Lord to make it.

1 comment:

  1. I can relate to these feelings - both about your daughter and traveling.

    I have been stuck in a house for the last four years (husband/cancer) after eight years of fulltiming and enjoying Thousand Trails Preserves.

    We sort of compromised . . . we live in a mobile home village where there are mobile homes and a campground, so we still have the feel that we are just "staying here for now", even though we live in a mobile home now.

    Living in an apartment is entirely different from being in a separate building or vehicle. I wouldn't want to do that ever again.

    I haven't been reading your blog long enough to know why you are no longer traveling, but you are about my age, it seems, so I can surmise how it just became too much to deal with.

    If/When I am a lone traveler, I think I will retain this mobile home, and travel for a few months at a time in our Sportsmobile Class B campervan.

    We also have a 2005 Lazy Daze that is fully self contained with solar panels, etc., which will make an excellent fulltiming rig, and I may get up the courage to use that as my transportation.

    Best of luck to you.

    Virtual hugs,